Over the past few weeks, maybe even months, I have found myself at a place of being discouraged very fast and easy. Which for anyone who really knows me, knows I don't normally get discouraged very easy at all. So in this season of what seems like a roller coaster of emotions regarding faith, life, and relationships I find myself seeing the end of the tunnel... well maybe not the end but I have gotten a new breath of life.
In the past week I have heard these two lines several times from different sources randomly not trying to seek them out. I would be sitting on the couch watching tv, driving in my car listening to the radio, or reading this random book my grandma gave me to read, and every time a bell went off in my head and I didn't know why. The 2 quotes are: "Be faithful in the small things." and "If you can't stand up under discouragement then you probably shouldn't be in ministry"
So as I was sitting there reading the book, listening to the radio, and watching TV, the Lord was sending me "winds" of hope. The wind comes and goes, but certain winds leave a mark... Wind can move the sand covering your heart, it can uproot the trees we have planted thinking they were good, it opens our ears to the mighty powerful sound is makes, and it can make us shut our eyes because sometimes it hurts to look into the storm. But the good news is God won't let you down.
As your walking through this storm, or dry season of life the Lord is right beside us, using us when we ask to be used, and sending us "signs" to let us know he is right beside us and understands. So whether your like me and find yourself in a season of "fear","doubt", and discouragement in only doing the small things, or if your in a season of Joy, Peace, and are a water fountain of love. Remember to be faithful in the small things, and trust that HIS plans over rule all discouragement
Have a blessed week!
Sunday, May 23, 2010
Monday, May 17, 2010
What's Next???
What's next? I've been hearing this question a lot lately for several reasons, one being I'm the one to always have a crazy vision for what I want to do next with my life, and two because that's the question every Junior and senior in high school gets.
As many of you know the past year or so I have been checking out several different types of schools, from missions to photojournalism, and in the past few months I have felt very overwhelmed and almost discouraged and not wanting to seek for schools anymore because when I felt like a a door was opened it would then slam in my face. Well this past weekend I decided to make one more stop and check out YWAM Denver (missions training school). The night before I was sitting in my hotel room praying, and asking God that if I was supposed to go here that he would show me in a way that I couldn't deny.
So Friday morning my parents and I woke up and headed over to the base to get a tour and join them for worship, and as we were worshiping an intense peace fell upon me, and for the first time in a long time it didn't matter who was beside me, what the songs were, or where I was... I was able to sit at the feet of Jesus and be filled and praise him for who he was. They started playing a song that I had heard only a few times, (one of those songs that you "know" the song and when you finally see the lyrics you feel dumb cause you were singing the totally wrong words) and as I was crying out with the rest of the school for the first time I read the words of the song and began to weep. (BETH DOESN'T NORMALLY CRY) The chorus went like this...
I have finally found where I belong, I have finally found where I belong in Your presence I have finally found where I belong, To be with You, to be with You
And as the school sang this song the tears built up in my eyes, and it was like God was saying "Beth stop looking... give me your frustrations...this... THIS IS WHERE YOU BELONG!"
So with that I am planning on applying to YWAM Denver, it's a very neat base with a lot of young passion for the Lord. www.ywamdenver.com In that please be praying that I would get accepted, and if the Lord has different plans that the door to YWAM would be closed.
As many of you know the past year or so I have been checking out several different types of schools, from missions to photojournalism, and in the past few months I have felt very overwhelmed and almost discouraged and not wanting to seek for schools anymore because when I felt like a a door was opened it would then slam in my face. Well this past weekend I decided to make one more stop and check out YWAM Denver (missions training school). The night before I was sitting in my hotel room praying, and asking God that if I was supposed to go here that he would show me in a way that I couldn't deny.
So Friday morning my parents and I woke up and headed over to the base to get a tour and join them for worship, and as we were worshiping an intense peace fell upon me, and for the first time in a long time it didn't matter who was beside me, what the songs were, or where I was... I was able to sit at the feet of Jesus and be filled and praise him for who he was. They started playing a song that I had heard only a few times, (one of those songs that you "know" the song and when you finally see the lyrics you feel dumb cause you were singing the totally wrong words) and as I was crying out with the rest of the school for the first time I read the words of the song and began to weep. (BETH DOESN'T NORMALLY CRY) The chorus went like this...
I have finally found where I belong, I have finally found where I belong in Your presence I have finally found where I belong, To be with You, to be with You
And as the school sang this song the tears built up in my eyes, and it was like God was saying "Beth stop looking... give me your frustrations...this... THIS IS WHERE YOU BELONG!"
So with that I am planning on applying to YWAM Denver, it's a very neat base with a lot of young passion for the Lord. www.ywamdenver.com In that please be praying that I would get accepted, and if the Lord has different plans that the door to YWAM would be closed.
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