45 Days!

The thought of leaving in 45 days is exciting yet a little scary at the same time. I have really been learning that I can do nothing on my own strength, and it's all out of God's. There is this book called No Compromise, its written by Keith Green's wife after he died, and I found this prayer that totally fits what I'm feeling going into these next few months of my life.

"Can't sleep. An angel wants to burn my lips with the coal. I must count the cost. Isaiah 6:7-8 Here am I. Send me! Prayer is the key. Make me a man of prayer! Put power in my words. Your word is powerful! Make your word my word, make your power my power. I want to be God's voice, full of love, mercy and fire! But I must be dead! I am ready for Death! Kill me, destroy me, burn me beyond recognition. I know now that you would never hurt or harm me. You only want me dead! Let it be done! I don't want greatness. I want you to be great! Lower me down, humble me. Teach me to humble myself, O Lord! I love you so much, but not as you love the Father. I want to love you that way!"

"O God, I was frightened, but now I'm feeling better. This is God's revival. His will, his burden, not mine. Lord, let me pray! Help me prepare a message in the furnace with you! Not by power, not by might, but by my Spirit! Amen!"